It’s a magical time for me. I allowed my realization to take hold in the fall of 2017. What a glorious two months I experienced before finding myself in what I would call “the gap.” What’s the gap, you say? It’s the space – the adjustment period – that occurs between self-realization and embodiment, for those choosing to stay in physical form.
For me, this was the time in which any final energetic imbalances I held within my body of consciousness came to a head. Certain things I had avoided for so many lifetimes presented themselves, and at the right moment, for I needed the level of consciousness realization brings to be able to meet these parts of myself.
One way to say it is in the realized state of being, consciousness, or awareness of occurrence, happens in the moment. Prior to reaching that state of being, one experiences the spiral of experience and then understanding the experience with wisdom in hindsight. Realization removes linearity and the law of cause and effect so it all happens in the human perception of ‘real time.’ Thus, wisdom is instant, it occurs simultaneously with experience.
Energetic rebalancing is nothing like an aspect integration. Instead, my experience in energetic rebalancing was Me making sure that when I stepped into my full creator potential I wasn’t bringing a single energetic imbalance with me.
Another way to put it is the relationship between energy and my sovereign stream of pure consciousness (which contains no energy) was being cleared of any residue or residual build up.
One example is marked by moving though the deep sadness of walking through the wall of fire, or the perception of falling from grace as I went form angelic form into a human one. Thinking I had worked out the worthiness and guilt thing prior to allowing my realization – and I did –
I saw clearly within myself the energetic imbalance this created, and in seeing it, it seemed to autocorrect itself.
That is, after I cried myself into an ocean of tears, which served me so well. The tears were like a white wash flood which flowed between energy and consciousness to remove this residue. Truly a beautiful experience, when the human became aware of what was occurring. I was re-writing my relationship between my own consciousness and the energy that responds to it.
A second example of an energetic re-balancing that occurred after realization was walking through the last time I held the God-like creative ability – what I was about to step into in embodiment. The last time I had such ability was during my time in Atlantis where I held a leadership role with my dear friend El Morya.
In this experience, I was taken to that parallel time and space, standing next to the being that I now call El Morya, as we watched the fall of Atlantis together, knowing we were, in part, responsible for such a thing ( a flood that killed millions).
It was in walking through this, that I came to understand, to know deeply, I was not going to abuse this creative “power” once again. In fact, I realized I could not even if I tried, and the fear of hurting others dissolved once again.
The dragon of clarity and forgiveness came back in gentle this time, and instead of breathing fire, this expression of Self, recalibrated my relationship with energy to clear the residual of any perceived use of power or manipulation (any agenda tied to outcome) in a fully creative state of being.
I often write about New Energy – it is the basis of my books and everything I share. So what is it really?
New Energy is what comes after the New Age. It is an evolution of energetic dynamics that allows the integration of duality, mainly the human and divine parts of self to merge into one. There is no longer a separation between human and soul, or human and the angelic or master self and the I Exist.
The New Age was based on frequency and vibration, which is still something that moves in a somewhat linear and somewhat dualistic fashion, with levels.
New Energy instead has nothing to do with frequency or vibration. There are no levels or higher or lower. Instead, New Energy is expansional in all directions. This is something I feel I am deeply experienced in, equipped to talk about, and have the ability to sovereignly support in others.
Further, the space prior to realization is all about integration of Self, the perception of bringing all parts and pieces home to Self.
Once integrated, a being then moves through an experience in understanding its deep and personally unique relationship with energy.
You can do this from a not yet entirely integrated space, but I see how it will be so much easier to take on understanding your relationship with energy if you allow your realization.
Yet, there is no linear time, so it doesn’t matter. It just makes it easier at a human level to comprehend energetic dynamics and how it responds to consciousness - because in an integrated state you don’t have the ego mind trying to “get it.”
Just as the trinity merges to become One fully integrated Self in realization, it is in the gap between realization and embodiment that energy and consciousness, which were separate entities in perception, also merge as one after a period of rebalancing occurs naturally within Self.
And that is when the New Energy really comes into play. Just as when the clarity of awareness allowed the soul and human and I AM to merge as one, so too will energy and consciousness when it is appropriate timing for you.
Just don't wait too long, you don't want to miss this experience in physical form!
And just like in realization, you realize you were never not whole, I have a sneaking suspicion when energy and consciousness merge as one, you and I will realize they were never not combined.
What a cool experience of separating things out to truly become aware of them. And it is in the elixir of awareness that we can truly see nothing in separate ever, we were simply having an experience of separation.
Come, we know a way,
A path from the house
You've lived in for so long,
To a garden that will take your breath away.
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Lauren, Sar'h and El Morya
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Good day friends,
I am sending out the May newsletter a little early as I ‘prepare’ to go on a few journeys within. There’s so much I have to share. It seems endless, like I can never catch up with myself.
If you read my book, you know when I was about eight years old I shared my consciousness, my soul in front of my third-grade class. Shut down, I vowed to never share again, and then something happened…
I learned the powerless power of being vulnerable, of putting myself out there, sharing my story, and realizing that for every critic (and there will always be one) there was at least a dozen people nodding in understanding.
Not only was I sharing my story, I was opening up the door for others to share too. And in my vulnerability, there was also courage, and the two were one and the same.
Vulnerability and courage and the willingness to accept ‘failure’ or ‘criticism’ as part of the journey is not only something that supported my outward projection and interaction, it also so necessary for the experience of realization.
Most humans live their lives dictated by mind-based narratives they tell themselves. The spectrum of stories is wide and overlapping. I’m not good enough is also matched by I have nothing new to learn; I have this all figured out.
In some ways, self-realization is daring to have the courage and vulnerability to be completely real and honest with yourself. Not from a mind narrative perspective but in deep communion with your soul.
Further, it requires – as I have called it – walking through the valley of alone. Some here are just starting to make the voyage across death valley, others are in the middle of it, and some like me made it to the other side.
What feels like pure torture and also beyond necessary for the self-realization experience, in the end (with the conscious perspective of hindsight) is a graceful stripping of all you thought to be true about yourself, so that you can come to know – who you truly are.
In the last months, I have moved from making it through the valley of alone, into the dry desert of Self, and only recently has that dry desert turned into a lush forest in a bottomless ocean of NewSelf.
Yet I remember what it is like to walk the valley of death and alone, which is why I created my Patreon page and a Facebook group. Sometimes you need to come up for air and connect with like-consciousness beings. You are invited to join.
In previous times, self-realization was chosen by so few, that it was near impossible to find a peer in consciousness. Those days are over, and I like to sense myself as a connector of sorts.
Speaking of the NewSelf, I have been in deep communion of understanding the NewSelf, and New Life, that is a new form of realization available to all of us. Embodiment. Something many of you are choosing.
I have also come across in my ‘research’ others having more of a typically Eastern form of realization or enlightenment in which they reach a NoSelf experience.
I will write more about that, for I have experienced both in such a way that I can now move back and forth into the facets of realization.
Yet, I will note, before I reached NewSelf in New Life, I found I had to sit for a while in the NoSelf, which for me was the most extremely scary experience – that is, until it wasn’t.
NoSelf was and is a fully identity-free state of being, with only an understanding of now. I had no human persona. It was like I stripped it off for good.
Then one day when I saw the opening for New Life, I took it. And in choosing this experience, I found I put my human costume back on, the look of New Life (USARA) – also covered in my new book.
The NoSelf was still there in a facet or layer of Self, yet this NewSelf was my way of operating and interacting in the world – both entirely human and not human simultaneously (transhuman perhaps is a solid word here).
I will write more about this on my Patreon page where we have been exploring multi-reality living.
If you are interested in Patreon, below are two articles to try out for free.
In honor of you and your inimitable consciousness and experience,
Lauren, in love
FEATURED WRITERS OF THE MONTH
I introduced the idea of a featured writer section some months ago. I like to highlight writers who are not channeling dis-embodied beings but rather experiencing realization and/ or conscious living as embodied beings and sharing that direct experience.
There is no one size fits all version of self-realization and I cherish diversity of consciousness. The fun part is I require getting on the phone or video chat with the writers before I share, so I have the added bonus of a very interesting conversation. If you have an idea for the featured writers section, please send me a note.
All of the May calls are completely full. I will announce the next ones at the beginning of June. I will be offline May 11-18 and May 24 - June 4 for surf vacations, or at least I am expecting to be without Wifi or cell service for those times. Beyond those dates, I do have room for three more clients in the next two months. More information on sessions can be found HERE.
Lauren Hutton (Sar'h) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond.