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Imagine a time and space in which the parts and pieces of Self are no longer scattered on simultaneous timelines. They have come home for this very special lifetime of wholeness. Integration through pure awareness.
Imagine instead of energy within being driven and motivated by triggers (that dissolve along with the emotional, mental and physical body), they are motivated by an integrated passion to be YOU. To exist free and clear.
Imagine instead of a dense physical body, you operate as a vessel of consciousness that flows freely through life (or life flows through it rather).
Feel into the already existing stream of your inimitable consciousness that flows through your free energy vessel.
Feel into what it is like to have time and space move through you - creational gold - rather than moving through linear time and physical space.
Instead of manifesting from lack, solving a problem, trying to fill in a space of something you do not yet have, imagine creating from a sense of wholeness.
What would it look like to create for the sake of expression rather than trying to fill a need or make yourself feel different or be finished with something? What would you create?
There is no crack to fill, no human desire to bring in something you think you might be missing, instead creation is out of pure joy rather than lack. If you choose, go to this space.
Realization, enlightenment, any perceived final destination is now simply a billboard that you drove past about 600 miles ago as you drive down the I AM THAT I AM freeway.
Having passed by this concept of realization or enlightenment or what have you, you are now free to create whatever you choose. This is your New Life - USARA - what do you want to create?
You can share in the comments or on today's call if you wish.
Also... We will cover what I called the "little black box" - for myself and in those I have worked with or stood by, moving from the initial realization into embodiment of it, some things tend to come up.
The human stuff has now been cleared. Relational stuff from this lifetime, childhood traumas, I'm not good enough aspects, past lives of persecution and violence. Stuff that was handled throughout awakening.
Then a point is reached where a deep sigh of relief occurs. You can feel the I AM THAT with depth of experience rather than simply as a concept. This is absolutely necessary to move forward...
The dragon clarity comes in for one last look - for you do not want to take anything in the black box with you into embodiment.
For me, this was the removal of an Atlantean implant and the guilt and shame surrounding it.
You will not come with me into my embodiment and the New Life that comes after it.
Another was former abuses of power - not even ones on Earth - but in the angelic realms where the energy feeding games began and then reflected on Earth, magnified even today.
Additionally, bringing in parts and peices of Self that have never been on Earth. This is not bringing home a human past life for integration - that was handled pre-realization.
This is expanding out in the cosmos to meet the parts of myself I projected out there for a specific service that is no longer needed.
For example, for me, that was bringing in the part of me who sat on angelic councils, where hierarchy was still a thing. Let's just say she did not want to give up her position of power.
Opening this black box is messy. It make cause you do doubt yourself, your consciousness, or to lash out at everyone around you, projecting it.
I hope if this temptation arises to last out at others, you will remember there's only one energy and its all yours. Proecting it out is such a huge distraction. This has nothing to do with others, only your SELF. Peace is an inside job - it all is.
The Dragon time is a time for going deep within - as energy begins to truly serve you.
Again, it calls for an awareness that all energy is one and it is all yours.
There is no one doing anything to you -- not from some outside entity, person or group.
Because it is all your energy, you can meet it and accept it fully. No matter how dark it may appear.
Energy is serving here by bringing into your vision any last separations, any last traumas. any last guilt, any imbalances.
What is left of our human persona may say, "I'm letting energy serve me, and it is killing me."
Then as Morya would say, "put your big girl panties on."
As I learned the hard way, once I stop fighting the perception of outside energy, the big picture rolls through.
Anytime something unpleasant or perceived as dark came through - THAT WAS ENERGY SERVING ME!
Not how the human thought it would, but in an even more supportive way. The only thing upset was the wisp of human personality identification that was left.
We were going to full embodiment with no stone unturned. This was appropriate, necessary, and I finally understood, it didn't have to look good on the surface. I didn't need to explain myself to anyone, and I was no less a master for being a total and complete mess.
In fact, without this time period of allowing the huge mess (not suffering, just perceptional chaos), being vulnerable in not trying to manage or hide the mess from my peers, I realized I was never going to make it to the shores of embodiment or step into my new life.
It had to fall completely apart. The house of cards had to collapse. I had to let it go, that's all. And let go how it looked to my human self or anyone else.
I think there might be a idea that this little black box never goes away, I'm going to answer that with an AND.
First, having spend two years staring the dragon in the eye with no breaks, I watched one wave after another come. Then around August/ September, I kept staring in the eye of the dragon, but another wave didn't come.
Maybe this is just a break between sets, surely there is something else to clear. And then my buddy (also your buddy if you chose it) St. Germain came. We went on a walk along a Kauai, Hawaii trail.
He did not give me an answer or tell me anything. He said, "I am here because I would be with you every step of the way. We are at the next point of no return."
He stopped walking and disappeared. I got it instantly.
His presence showed me I had emptied the black box. And now, embodiment was at hand.
Any of the massive imbalances, especially angelic council girl, that would have been a recipe for cancer or leading me to the mental institution had been cleared. I was ready to integrate the biology - or in CC language, I had visited the altars of change and transmutation.
Embodiment began to take hold - the piercing clarity which had dropped me to my knees over and over again, that clarity that led me to cry for a solid month and stand on Mount Shasta arms raised saying, "Fuck you! You don't know how hard this is, bitches!!!" So embarrassing now, to call out to ascended masters like that.
Well, it's not like that clarity went away, it's just that I got used to it. It became welcome and I keep it forefront.
It is no something I used and discarded. The dragon clarity is something that will always be a part of my kaleidoscopic vision.
Do things still come up in the dragon eye of clarity? Yes, but they are tiny and instantly seen for what they are and cleared. It happens less and less and always when necessary.
It's not that the dragon eye of clarity goes away, or that there is a graduation (so human, stop with that, please).
The dragon goes from being a separate aspect of Self into an integrated expression of Self. It's always there, and becomes not a foe or teacher, this dragon becomes part of your creational ability. To create with precision in energetic awareness.
Here in this space it allows me to see what going on with clarity, how I can improve as a facilitator, and more importantly in the hours and days and weeks and months I spend alone, it has become a dear friend.
In the end, the dragon is an expression of your SELF, that says dear human personality, lets open this black box together.
It may not be pleasant, it may humble and even humiliate you in the most perfect of ways, yet, in the end, the best friends are those who are straight with you.
I used to wonder why Morya never came and put his hand on my back or when I sat crying on the bathroom floor why he wouldn't show up. Sometimes he would disappear for months. He is a master of few words.
And then I realized it was because he loved me. He respected me. When I was standing on two feet, clear, open and not blinded by my emotions and fears, then and only then would he come by.
He was saying, hey, you're to grand for this nonsense. You are so much more.
Morya especially found it highly unattractive when I got caught up in human drama, in surface relationships on the stage of human life, which are simply not something that is a thing in this state. If this happened, Morya was about sixteen realities away.
Now that the mental, emotional bodies dissolved (that's my word for integration because I do not feel myself filling, but going emptier and emptier) -- now that I know all that mess was my own and there was no one to blame or get tangled up in -- I can see clearly what was already here, this whole time.
No longer distracted or tangled in the unreal, I can truly see the actually reality.
Its crystalline sparkle is blinding - another new baseline - and thread in the tapestry of my New Life creation.
As we move into the deep introspective time of year, I wanted to share a couple things I wrote about the simplistic nature of living New Life (USARA), or life upon and after embodied "enlightenment" or a state of embodied being-ness.
In fact, I want to stress this topic is now what we are moving into in the private patron group.
What does life look like post-realization and keeping the physical form here on Earth as a vessel rather than a physical body the human tends to over identify with prior to embodiment?
What does life look like once the human fixed identity becomes fluid in form staying true to the changing tides of our own consciousness?
How do we operate when the mental and emotional bodies have dissolved and our biology becomes an facet, a vessel of consciousness, over an unruly aspect ridden with pain, disease and suffering?
How are decisions made into actual choice in a state of complete integration when we do not have a collective mind chatter to draw from or the illusion of logic?
How does pure awareness of Spirit look and operate in every day life as an embodied being?
On the patron page, these are questions we are answering from the voice of a sovereign collective. I do not speak from the bully pulpit but rather from a circle in which all the seats are faced to the center and all on a level ground (no hierarchy). I am simply putting in words the experience, drawing both from my own and from the beings around me.
The patron page has gone through a shift recently, some of the original folks left - in honor both ways - saying they want to "do this on their own". With deep understanding and awareness, I so respect this.
And, it is quite strange to me because there isn't a souled being out there who is not "doing it" on their own. Peace is an inside job. Realization and embodiment occur within the caverns of our being-ness. No one can do it for you. It cannot be done in a group mentality. And there actually is no "doing it"; there is only being it.
As those beautiful beings left who helped laid the groundwork (thank you!) for the sovereign collective, even more came in. The people coming into Patron having already dropped "doing it", traded that for "being it" as all naturally unfolds. We capture snapshots of this coming together for brief moments in between the all-in alone space.
We often live very solitary lives, and this space provides a little connection and understanding to break up the big chunks of solitude, which are necessary, and sometimes it is nice to have a bit of human connection.
In 2020, I feel even more beings reaching awareness of their realized states of being. I have lost count of those on Patron - there's more and more people stepping into that initial state of self-realization and even more, finding themselves in the steady state of the point of no return.
Realization becomes a fluid point rather than a hard finish line. It is a dance with no dance floor. And when realization is no longer a goal, people do not step into the space as seekers, but celebrators of what already is. This is a huge turning point for our space on the patreon platform.
Realization, creational intelligence (gnost), embodiment, the free energy or light body are not something we create. They have always existed - without birth or death or being lost or being found. These states of being were never not so. It is simply a matter of tapping into what already is.
Those on the patron page know this, and they come to share what it looks likes stepping into this awareness of what is, what always has been, and what will always be.
The human details may be different, but the underlying streams of consciousness - while sovereign - hold similarities, which we can bring together in creation of potentials and possibilities for those choosing consciousness over automation for eons to come.
The patron page is like a buffet - it includes group calls, articles, videos and more. People walk through the buffet line, placing appetizing topics on their plate, and walking past the ones that do not appeal to their sense of smell and taste.
It is my happy place, and as a result, I am taking a break from Facebook for a bit, to focus on what is offered there.
I have two articles to share. One I wrote for when things start to feel complex. Each sentence is a doorway to walk through, if you choose. The second one is a short story of what it is like to live embodied and venture out into society.
Happy Holidays, dear friends. Thank you for being with me, us, through a truly beautiful year, personally and professionally.
After some tugging and resistance to staying here on Earth with my vessel of consciousness, through this biological integration, I have found a deep peace, which I now realize contains everything I ever wanted, every desire or passion, both human and divine. To be.
I wish for everyone to have their peace on Earth moment, this holiday season. May it stay with you through your end of this human incarnation and set you up in your New Life in utter perfection, without having to leave physical form, only to return upon Earth's shores once again and begin anew.
Stepping into New Life can be an aggravating and irritating experience. It is my hope to provide doorways that do not lead you, but that reduce the sting of resistance as one moves from the realized state into a completely new world, called USARA.
With deep love, gratitude, and creative compassion,
Energy is simply communication. It is the song of the soul.
Consciousness is simply awareness. It is the silent whisper of the I AM.
The human or ego (not bad!!!) brings with it its ability to perceive and experience energy and consciousness in a state of no separation. New Energy.
All of this is simple and ease-y.
The Trinity becomes One.
Energy responds to Conscious Awareness.
It creates from no-thing. Creation does not need a point of origin.
This is fluid not static.
The perpetual state of becoming and being, becoming and being, becoming and being....
And waking up one day, saying "Oh, I created that," with a big smile on your face.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: Embodied Enlightenment is more Forest Gump and a lot less Sir Isaac Newton.
The more complex you make it, the further you are from IT. or THAT.
Why would God or pure awareness be complicated in a human mind way?
Why would God or pure awareness be anything but simple and ease-y?
Be still and know that you are God, too.
Energetic maturity means you have come down to the simplicity, dropping your complex ideas and theories, as the human free will melts into the All that is You.
LIVING EMBODIED: VENTURING OUT, WHILE STAYING IN
For those who do not know, I live a rather solitary life. I am on a tiny island at the bottom of Texas, with a population below 4,000 people.
My days and nights are spent in deep silence found five thousand meters below sea level, clarity that would make most men cry for they could not handle it’s deafening silence, and stillness like the surface of an ocean when the winds have come to a complete halt.
This is why I live alone. I would not trade that for anything. It is my most precious of experiences on Earth. It is beyond the label of “sacred.” If someone were to talk to me with their un-integrated mind when I am in my Samadhi bliss, I fear I might slap them. I’ll get over it. But after you have spent so long to get here, you will not wish for anything beyond it.
Sometimes I cook, a great joy, and maybe watch a movie – the newish “Peanut Butter Falcon” movie is quite good, by the way – and then I go to sleep a little bit after the sun goes down.
Sleep for me happens quickly. I have steady and sustained energy, prana running high, all day, and the beauty of embodiment is you don’t have to unwind or wipe off the day.
I lay down, switch the energetic channels from active to rest, no longer having the biological nervous system as it once was, and in minutes I am curled up within my I AM-ness. I envelope in blackness and a dreamless state, and I am softly delivered to the awakening dawn each morning just as the sun peaks over the horizon.
Every now and then I will be awakened earlier. In Hawaii, I got up naturally around 4 a.m. to watch the Milky Way and the meteor showers.
I do have dreams from time to time. If so, they are not the sort of story burn-off, mental chatter manifested dreams, they are acts of consciousness.
For example, I had a dream about coming into physical form for the very first time in October to help me understand with human perception what that was like – after I chose to have the experience.
I am fully aware in the dream state, and my will is sharp and activated clearly as if I am awake in the human Earth reality. Sometimes, I find myself conversing with you, but that tends to happen when I am awake now. My sleep has become a sacred space for me to be ONLY within my Oceanic Self of the I AM THAT.
Yesterday, I felt a nudge to venture out. I was invited to a yoga class at a brewery – Hot Yoga and Cold Beer – so I went, for fun. And I did have fun. It was wonderful, inspiring, and absolutely eye opening. Like holy shit, wow.
I realized I had so completely forgotten what the world was like out there. You all are my source of socializing, and it is a million miles from mass belief system world.
We use mass belief system, or collective belief pool, or similar, here instead of mass consciousness, because there is nothing aware or consciousness about a collective belief pool.
It was staggering – the contrast – and stimulating in a way that was beyond delightful. Wow.
I sense often it is important to be in the world from time to time as an embodied being. To bring that stillness, quiet mind, and state of IS-ness into the world in ways no others will see but you.
I’m not even out there to “radiate my light” or whatever or to say anything – that is, unless I am asked directly…I simply bring my being-ness into a system for a bit. That’s it. That’s all that is needed.
It’s not about words, or projecting light, or illuminating potentials. All that happens when your being-ness touches the edges of a collective belief pool, without it being mechanical and far beyond the reaches of agenda.
As an embodied being, it is much easier to exist inside the cave, on the mountain top, and outside society in this state of being – or for me, my tree house in the sand dunes of Mustang Island.
However, the masters of the modern world, are greatly needed “out there.” The wholeness of being-ness, of Is-ness, is the greatest gift one can give – doing nothing, being everything.
What the fool on the hill or the hermit in the cave didn’t say is that we can completely remove ourselves from society and still play in it, simultaneously. It may take some getting used to, and it’s a worthwhile experience.
So back to this yoga class…
Now my background in yoga was with a man who lived with – in his ashram - Yogi Bhajan, an enlightened being – same with Xavi who is on this page. His yoga teacher also taught something of real substance. There are fantastic yoga teachers out there.
I also have a certification in Ashtanga yoga but it has always been practiced at home with Morya, with Bababji and on. I often forget that something else exists. Yoga that is not aimed at knowing oneself as God, also. But yoga for relaxing and stretching the muscles, such a strange concept. I really truly forgot that was a thing until last night.
For those who are new here, an embodied being is incapable of judgment. The lack of judgement is always assumed – both in articles and on calls – for with an integrated ego and beyond the collective mind belief pool – no such thing can live or exist. But I’ll add it here with new folks. But “no judgement” is not something we have to say. Let’s call it assumed. No one here is capable of judgement anymore with the ego integrated. It’s not a thing.
This class – though I had no expectations – was taught by someone with no connection to soul. Certainly, God or the I AM was some far and distant concept probably called “the Universe.” Soul hovered like a cloud detached from her body.
I simply watched. I simply observed. It was okay to just be there.
There she stood only a wisp of a human personality upon her mat.
Cues for the class included “bring your foot up there”, “move you bottom to the left”, and “take two breaths” which were timed at about a second (I guess that is how humans breathe? Shallow and quick??).
You know what? I didn’t mind. I followed her cues, which mixed sides, left out one thing on the left was not matched by another on the right, and skipped steps.
I smiled, just glad to be out of the house among the “living” world.
I observed. Everything out of her mouth was what she was told to say. What she mimicked like a parrot. None of herself was in her yoga class, because none of herself was in her awareness. It was truly fascinating.
I heard my inner voice say, “This is what the world is like. This is it.”
So simple. So neutral.
Again, this was an observation expression. And when the words in complete acceptance were spoken and echoed within my body of consciousness, I watched the shift occur within.
Time and space running through me – rather than me moving through time and space – this compassion was creating. Inner orgasm of energy singing its song flowing through my agenda-less being.
The wisps of beings, so shallow and fragile in this human life, flying through the physical Earthly realms for such a short time, only to be lifted up to the near-Earth realms for a bit, and then dropped back down into another life.
The bouncing ball of reincarnation: touching down, reaching up, touching down, reaching up, touching down, reaching up...
Just like the movement of a vinyasa.
Inhale rise. Exhale fold. Inhale upward dog. Exhale downward dog.
This life is but a very brief exhale. Death a short inhale. Two seconds like the new yogis’ breath.
And somehow in all of it, I see the beauty. I am not sad, but honored still I got to shallow breathe with the new yogis for a little bit last night. To be with them in this very short visit to Earth. This life so very tiny in the grandness of the Infinite.
Perhaps in one of the drop downs from the near-Earth realms into yet another incarnation – they will remember – there is so much more.
It doesn’t fucking matter. IDFM.
That is a creative statement. Not a brush off. It is knowing in the big picture of human life, as a souled being, and further as a consciousness. Nothing in this human world truly matters.
And in the totality of acceptance, things change. Compassion is the most creative of the senses.
I will make a point to venture out more often - to shallow breathe with the beings in their brief stays upon beautiful, dual planet Earth. It is an honor and a pleasure to be here. Now.
The Return to Simplicity is Creational.
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and shares her work here with the Magus Kuthumi.