After finishing up the Divine Blueprint workshop - something we will offer again next August and something you also offer in one on one sessions (did one yesterday!) - I began to feel an intensity like never before.
I also got COVID (again), and I was feeling the strain of this economic world situation we all find ourselves in.
Kuthumi had been absent allow me to run this workshop on my own, and he popped back in when I began to emerge from the haze of great change and not feeling so hot.
In fact, I was feeling both despair in my humanity all while being always being aware of the slow flow JOY of my divinity.
He asked me:
"Are you sad/ stressed/ humanly sick OR are you simply finding a NEW WAY to be - through disciplined curiosity?
Are you not making rivers in the desert and passageways through the wilderness?"
Something we covered in our last YouTube video below.
I wanted to punch him and then I realized he was right.
Repeat after me, he said:
"Kuthumi is always right. Light humor is always more truthful than anything heavy."
I had a chance to test it out recently.
Wednesday I was driving back from a much-needed camping trip with no computer and 24 hours no cell phone service, and I got my second flat tire in as many days - while being in the middle of no where.
I saw, sensed and knew:
Now's my chance for disciplined curiosity - something Kuthumi has walked us all through on repeat until we finally get it.
I also felt the shape of gnost (like a branching tree from where the spine connects to the back of the head) and the dynamics of how it works, which is something we cover in the Divine Blueprint materials.
All this to say is I live everything I share - I am forever a student of New Energy/ Christ Consciousness.
It's quite a whirlwind of how it all worked out.
Finding new tires from a city (all had to be replaced) and a guy willing to drive to the middle of no where to do it.
My watch said it took four hours, but as I sat at the picnic table on the side of the highway watching people come and go, I knew this flat tire was a gift.
A restoration in my faith in humanity, kindness, ability, and the New Earth we are creating alone together.
A new neural network created to be able to trust (once again) my ability to create a fluidly supported life by allowing it to run through me unfiltered.
Micro adjustments in the macro view - how you command new energy!
As I waited for this tire situation to fix itself through me (the actor and observer as ONE), it felt like an infinite 5 minutes rather than 4 hours on the side of the highway.
I too was drunk on LOVE - yet again - just like Kuthumi and Rumi!!
I am love with YOU. I am LOVE with Humanity! I am in Love with JOY and Gnost and all things Earthly.
It poured through me live a ranging river with no banks.
The doom and gloom girl from the days before - with no disciplined curiosity and no joy - would still be on the side of that highway crying saying why am I here, why is this so hard...
There is a deeper share here I want to get across.
It's important but I almost want to whisper it to you...
It's not so much about finding yourself at the bottom of a hole or falling out of grace anymore.
It's about being a student of New Energy.
It is about being willing to be wrong again and again.
This doom and gloom maybe isn't so fatal - after all. Maybe it's not something the human needs to fix or change but simply lean into.
The realized being reaching back to reclaim its humanity once again.
Maybe it is simply what it feels like to bring formless into form, to infuse Spirit into the the bio body, to identify subtle energy and make it gross physical again.
Maybe we just don't have the right language and labels for it yet!
So much so I hear people pointing at dragon clarity or the old energy stories about "maybe I am not allowing enough" and on...
But perhaps the "I Am doing a New Thing" is exactly that?
It IS New & something we do not quite have words for yet.
More to come in the November Satsang/ Playing in the Ps video.
IF NO ONE HAS TOLD YOU LATELY:
THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE ON EARTH.
IT IS A WILDLY BEAUTIFUL THING THAT YOU ARE HERE!
It’s a magical time for me. I allowed my realization to take hold in the fall of 2017. What a glorious two months I experienced before finding myself in what I would call “the gap.” What’s the gap, you say? It’s the space – the adjustment period – that occurs between self-realization and embodiment, for those choosing to stay in physical form.
For me, this was the time in which any final energetic imbalances I held within my body of consciousness came to a head. Certain things I had avoided for so many lifetimes presented themselves, and at the right moment, for I needed the level of consciousness realization brings to be able to meet these parts of myself.
One way to say it is in the realized state of being, consciousness, or awareness of occurrence, happens in the moment. Prior to reaching that state of being, one experiences the spiral of experience and then understanding the experience with wisdom in hindsight. Realization removes linearity and the law of cause and effect so it all happens in the human perception of ‘real time.’ Thus, wisdom is instant, it occurs simultaneously with experience.
Energetic rebalancing is nothing like an aspect integration. Instead, my experience in energetic rebalancing was Me making sure that when I stepped into my full creator potential I wasn’t bringing a single energetic imbalance with me.
Another way to put it is the relationship between energy and my sovereign stream of pure consciousness (which contains no energy) was being cleared of any residue or residual build up.
One example is marked by moving though the deep sadness of walking through the wall of fire, or the perception of falling from grace as I went form angelic form into a human one. Thinking I had worked out the worthiness and guilt thing prior to allowing my realization – and I did –
I saw clearly within myself the energetic imbalance this created, and in seeing it, it seemed to autocorrect itself.
That is, after I cried myself into an ocean of tears, which served me so well. The tears were like a white wash flood which flowed between energy and consciousness to remove this residue. Truly a beautiful experience, when the human became aware of what was occurring. I was re-writing my relationship between my own consciousness and the energy that responds to it.
A second example of an energetic re-balancing that occurred after realization was walking through the last time I held the God-like creative ability – what I was about to step into in embodiment. The last time I had such ability was during my time in Atlantis where I held a leadership role with my dear friend El Morya.
In this experience, I was taken to that parallel time and space, standing next to the being that I now call El Morya, as we watched the fall of Atlantis together, knowing we were, in part, responsible for such a thing ( a flood that killed millions).
It was in walking through this, that I came to understand, to know deeply, I was not going to abuse this creative “power” once again. In fact, I realized I could not even if I tried, and the fear of hurting others dissolved once again.
The dragon of clarity and forgiveness came back in gentle this time, and instead of breathing fire, this expression of Self, recalibrated my relationship with energy to clear the residual of any perceived use of power or manipulation (any agenda tied to outcome) in a fully creative state of being.
I often write about New Energy – it is the basis of my books and everything I share. So what is it really?
New Energy is what comes after the New Age. It is an evolution of energetic dynamics that allows the integration of duality, mainly the human and divine parts of self to merge into one. There is no longer a separation between human and soul, or human and the angelic or master self and the I Exist.
The New Age was based on frequency and vibration, which is still something that moves in a somewhat linear and somewhat dualistic fashion, with levels.
New Energy instead has nothing to do with frequency or vibration. There are no levels or higher or lower. Instead, New Energy is expansional in all directions. This is something I feel I am deeply experienced in, equipped to talk about, and have the ability to sovereignly support in others.
Further, the space prior to realization is all about integration of Self, the perception of bringing all parts and pieces home to Self.
Once integrated, a being then moves through an experience in understanding its deep and personally unique relationship with energy.
You can do this from a not yet entirely integrated space, but I see how it will be so much easier to take on understanding your relationship with energy if you allow your realization.
Yet, there is no linear time, so it doesn’t matter. It just makes it easier at a human level to comprehend energetic dynamics and how it responds to consciousness - because in an integrated state you don’t have the ego mind trying to “get it.”
Just as the trinity merges to become One fully integrated Self in realization, it is in the gap between realization and embodiment that energy and consciousness, which were separate entities in perception, also merge as one after a period of rebalancing occurs naturally within Self.
And that is when the New Energy really comes into play. Just as when the clarity of awareness allowed the soul and human and I AM to merge as one, so too will energy and consciousness when it is appropriate timing for you.
Just don't wait too long, you don't want to miss this experience in physical form!
And just like in realization, you realize you were never not whole, I have a sneaking suspicion when energy and consciousness merge as one, you and I will realize they were never not combined.
What a cool experience of separating things out to truly become aware of them. And it is in the elixir of awareness that we can truly see nothing in separate ever, we were simply having an experience of separation.
Come, we know a way,
A path from the house
You've lived in for so long,
To a garden that will take your breath away.
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Lauren, Sar'h and El Morya
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels, how to books, and short stories about embodying the Christ Consciousness on Earth.