Hello friends and happiest of New Years!
I wrote this experiential article on Christmas Eve 2019, in honor of all the Merlins and Masters choosing realization in the year 2020.
I am so in honor of you and want to be one of the first beings to swing out into the future now moment and say, "Hello. I see you. Wanna play?"
Here we go. Grab your surfboards...
The last ocean swell has left the island. For those who do not surf physical waves – conscious ones, instead – that means there is nowhere to surf by my home right now.
I did get three glorious days of cold but sweet surf in before the ocean became flat once again. When that happens, I turn back to my first true love – writing. Another form of surf!
You know I use the waves and surfing analogy a lot when it comes to realization. It’s what I know, and it is simply appropriate.
Sometimes in allowing embodied realization it feels like nothing is happening. "Why is nothing happening?"
Basically, you are a surfer standing on the sand, all dressed in your wetsuit and holding your surfboard, ready to surf but the waves aren’t there yet.
So, you wait. And you wait some more.
You go do other things until the waves show up, ready to be ridden.
Those waves are your I AM consciousness.
The surfer is the human you choosing realization combined with the wisdom of the soul or the master. The master and human combined form the Merlin.
The surfboard is a vehicle called allowing.
The human and the master – containing all the wisdom from all lifetimes and in between – combined, which some call Merlin, is standing on the sand, holding its allowing surfboard, and waiting for the waves of conscious awareness to come pick up the Merlin and deliver it in unity of the trinity of Self – soul, human and the Infinite Mystery of the I AM combined as ONE.
You wait and you wait and you wait for the waves to form.
“Where are the waves of realization?” you ask, tapping your foot impatient. It feels like IT is taking forever.
You wait so long, you just brush it aside. Either the waves will come or they will not. Either realization will be there or it won't.
“I can’t care anymore,” you tell yourself.
Then one day, you, the human, look out from your balcony and see something starting to form in the ocean.
The Merlin in You says, "Hey, take note." So you do.
The Wisdom of the Master says, "It is time."
Through your combined vision - human and divine - you see a little set of waves come through.
Then another set comes through. And another.
With each set the waves get bigger.
The waves get cleaner, which means they will be worthy of surf.
There’s a sensation that flows through your body of consciousness that says without words: “Are you ready? It is time.”
The thing is at this point you know you are ready.
The dragon expression of You cast its unrelenting vision of clarity upon all you had left to clear as a human and a souled being, to prepare you for this moment.
You studied and studied and then you dropped it.
Your physical body broke down, and re-wired itself.
All in preparation for this ONE moment beyond time and space - Realization.
There was nothing more to learn right now. It was only about allowing.
"Are you going to allow the leap into consciousness?"
Yes. Yes, you are.
In the days leading up to the surf waves coming to your island, a sensation of deep stillness and surrender to SELF already set in as you were waiting for the waves to arrive.
You became peacefully aware of all of your SELF, as you pulled back from external reality. All of it.
A deep peace combined with the sensation: it doesn't matter. None of the stuff I thought mattered actually does.
And now the day is here. You were told the date was set. Sometimes you doubted it, but now you know it is true. It always has been true.
The I AM consciousness wave is there. It has finally arrived. That voice inside you says silently, “This is it. Realization.”
“Will you ride the wave?”
The question comes in as choice – one last time – and then you realized quickly, “Oh yes, I have already ridden the I AM consciousness wave and it works out just fine.”
You have waited all your lifetimes for this moment.
The human almost in a trance-like state, wisdom of the master in tow, gathers up its surfboard.
The paddle out to the breaking wave is easy. You are not having to fight to paddle out this time.
The dragon clarity dissolved the baggage that weighed you down before, creating a friction the last time you attempted to paddle out. Readiness.
It’s almost as if the current is dragging you effortlessly out to the wave’s peak without you doing anything. Ease.
It is all happening. Holy shit.
Once you get your surfboard lined up with the wave’s peak, you watch a few sets of waves go past you and then you see IT.
THAT is the wave I am going surf. That is the wave of realization.
You can sense in your cells and the space between the cells the wave forming from far away. As it rolls toward you, it begins to grow taller.
The wave grows as it sucks water from the ocean floor, and you know it’s going to be a big one. Oh. My. Goodness.
The soul sings, “There is nothing to fear.”
And, the human trusts this song of the soul above all else.
You maneuver yourself on your allowing surfboard into the best position to catch the wave.
Your master or soul wisdom is the navigator here.
It places you in the perfect spot to catch this wave of consciousness - your inimitable I AM consciousness - heading towards you.
The human gives it two short paddles into the wave. Left arm. Right arm. Stand up. Pop. You're flying down the crest of the realization wave. A wave that is yours alone.
Oh my goodness! it’s happening. This is really happening.
Okay, now, don’t forget to enjoy it. Like really take it in.
The human you almost cannot believe it. But it does anyway. A blind trust that comes from the deep stillness that set in many days ago.
Then you’re standing on the surfboard riding the wave, soaring and dancing across the face of the wave effortlessly, when you realize I am THAT.
I am THAT wave of pure, undiluted, infinite consciousness. The rest was a grand illusion. That wave is Me!
It’s a long ride, this wave of realization, and then when the wave stops, it folds into the ocean, and as you fly off the surfboard, hands in the air in total celebration, you fold into THAT wave as well - human and soul as one merge and combine with the I AM THAT I AM - the oceanic Self.
Then you realize in the free fall from standing on the surfboard until the time you hit the water's surface:
The ocean is YOU.
The surfboard is YOU.
The previously limited human, even, is YOU.
The soul, simply another facet of YOU.
The dragon, an expression of You that prepared you for this experience.
YOU are THAT.
I AM THAT - I AM.
You are all one bottom-less ocean of consciousness. YOU are GOD, also.
This feels so good. And you sit with it. WHOLENESS. UNITY. BEAUTY. LOVE. GOD...
All the things that were once perceptions to be explored individually, they are NOW sensations that run simultaneously. Kaleidoscopic vision. Singularly multiple voice.
Like an orgasm, you hold it until you cannot anymore. Deep release. A deep surrender to the void.
When it’s time to come back out of the ocean and walk on the sandy shores of physical reality, it is YOU that emerges. A state of no separation. A fluid being with no fixed identity.
Not only that, there is an entirely different world waiting to be explored as YOU – in an oceanic state of no separation.
And that’s where things start to get real interesting. It is when you start to really live - for the very first time.
This is where my next book will pick up.
It will cover my life experiences spanning the first year after realization. How do you operate in a world now as a newly realized being?
Like Morya said: "I guess you get to create it!"
Who emerged from the realization wave, and how did they interact with the world after everything changed?
I will cover how in changing my relationship with energy in a realized state of being I went from merely surviving to absolutely thriving. And, what it looked like to take this experience and embody it fully.
Recently, Adamus St. Germain said more than one thousand beings would step into the initial state of realization in 2020.
First, I want to honor you. Please do not fail to enjoy the ride. It only happens once.
Second, after the dust settles, you will realize realization is only the tip of the iceberg, not the whole iceberg. What you thought was the conclusion to the story, now becomes the jumping off point for embodiment and New Life, USARA.
Third, I’ll hope you’ll come by to play with us when the realization dust settles. I hope you come share your embodiment with us, and when it drops you off into New Life, Nova Vita, USARA.
We will be here waiting.
Finally, I will see you on our YouTube channel on Monday, January 6th, for the New Year Satsang.
HAPPY 2020!!! THE YEAR OF NEW ENERGY CREATION!
In honor of you --
Sar'h: the Vessel of USARA consciousness for anyone choosing New Life in Embodied Form
Morya: Holding open the door for fully embodied realization and New Energy Creation
We love you. Even Morya gets a little soft tapping into this potential.
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I use "we" as a multiplicity of Self. This is not advice unless you chose it to be so. It was channeled from the collective realization experience, and not just a personal story. Please substitute whatever pronoun feels good to you.
I want to introduce a concept in here. Choosing broadly what you want to experience, AND allowing it to come into being.
It seems at some point in the iterations of expansion of Self, we are able to choose various state of being and move into them without a pause or break in experience. Yet, if you nor I are not "there yet," there's another way, for now.
For example, back in August I felt, for me, a heavy burden holding a year-long lease on an apartment and having to hire a dog sitter in advance of being able to travel freely.
Without going into the details, I stated that I would like to choose freer way of living without being tied to a home, without being tied to a dog sitter.
Then the fears came in - not having a steady place to live, fearful for my dog's safety and security. Panic ensued to a small degree. This time I watched it with childlike curiosity.
Then PAUSE, allowing it all to come forth. I was panicked AND I knew it was all absolutely perfect. My heart did not skip a beat, my breath remained steady.
Fast-forward, or throw the car into reverse, rather, I am sitting here at 2:30 a.m. free to move about the world and my mom volunteering to take my dog at any time, and enjoying a cohesive relationship with her.
Yet in the last six weeks or so of choosing this experience, I had to allow karmic ties to unfold and re-wire, especially surrounding my mom. That was not pretty from the outside - holy crap - but from within, I was so enjoying the awareness of watching it all unfold, to come into being.
I allowed the fears of being without a home base to surface and dissolve within me.
I allowed more of myself to come in, which is the scariest part of all. The scariness is the perception of being alone. The more I let Self in, the more lonely it can feel...which ended up not being my truth, yet was so palpable at the time. Still the knowingness sat on the sideline watching it all unfold. And, the human was aware of this as it moved through. The NEW-ness!
As I sat back, relaxing on an Oregon beach on a beautifully sunny day, I watched the perception shift from total ALONE to completely and unwaveringly supported by everything and everyone. I did nothing. I held no thought. I simply watched the energy move around to serve me, like the changing tide in front of me.
But often in this allowing and the "scary" stuff that comes in, we say, "oh no, I messed it up," when really everything is coming together to support that beautiful CHOICE you or I made if we just get out of the way!
So often we hit the panic button and try to go back to the old choice that feels so much safer to the limited piece of ourselves - when if we just took a deep breath, allowed all the junk to rise to the surface it would clean itself out to present the choice wrapped in a surprising package for the CHOOSER (you/ me) to claim as a gift from SELF.
Additionally, a lot of us, previous me included, only take the deep breath or sigh or relief when we reach that sweet spot called being, when everything becomes NOW and there is no past or future.
(Perhaps previously or now) We "power(ed) through" allowing the CHOICE to come to be. Allowing these old stories or fears to come to a sort of resolution or peace is (was) quite daunting.
How many times have we put on our proverbial headphones and said, "wake me up when it's all over!"
What if we chose an experience, and enjoyed the ride of allowing it to come into being-ness?
What if we allowed this to be the experience of the creator in its creation, allowing the perceived chaos to form into the next iteration of expansion, the next iteration of the expanded self?
Instead of saying, I'll really be fine when all this is taken care of and I come into this new state of awareness or being-ness (human addiction to the future) - what if we were just okay in the ride of allowing that is the vehicle for this chosen state of being?
What if instead of suffering through a big shift in consciousness, we watched in childlike delight as it all moves through and lands in a new time and space? The free space.
In realization, this becomes instant. I am still in allowing on occasion, and I am also aware and enjoying it. As a result, it moves with ease (and quickly in linear time!). That's one example of the 'energy serves you and you don't even think about it anymore' state of being.
For me, BEING is defined as of perpetual becoming. A place of peace with what is, without past or future anything, of knowing you are the creator in your creation, without even having to think about it or repeat it like a mantra.
A creation of being within Self beyond the noise - not without noise but simply moved beyond it in pure consciousness. No headphones needed.
Being is a state without fear of the unknown or linear future or decisions based on past experiences - the old cause and effect linear modality of living.
Being is a place where we don't question our motives or more so ourselves and states of consciousness. A place to be in the expanded iteration of Self.
What if we enjoyed understanding in full awareness HOW we came to be, not just when we came to be, or what we came to be?
What if we used the sense of focus to play in how we created New Life for ourselves and not just on the linear outcome? There is no destination; nothing is static in the ever-dynamic state of being more and more of ourselves.
A state of constant motion, free from an identity to grasp onto or even more so - defend, we mold and shape freely to allow the maximum state of joy to permeate every single experience no matter how small.
Perhaps we already are 'there', and simply appreciating allowing is that extra icing on the cake?
In honor of you and your unique experiences,
Lauren and Sar'h
Sar'h, pronounced SAR-RA, is a name given to the body of unique wisdom that makes up realization, and creation in this new life. OO-SAR-RA. More on the BIOS page.
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and shares her work here with the Magus Kuthumi.