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DECISION VS CHOICE What is the real difference between decision and choice? According the dictionary, a decision is the action or process of deciding between something or resolving a problem. A choice is a range of possibilities and potentials from which one or more may be selected. For me decisions are made in attempt to solve a problem. Decisions happen in the matrix, on the surface of the water, or from a limited menu of finite energetic options in attempt to alleviate the perception of suffering (problems). In other words, decisions are made from a space of lack, of not having something, and having to bring in outside energy to fix something or bring in something that the subject lacks. For example, money, health, love from another, security… Choices, on the other hand, come from choosing one or more paths from an infinite energy source – flowing from within Self. Choices do not come from not having enough of something, but rather having access to so many potentials and possibilities that one must choose where to direct the energy that is sourced from within. Choices are made from a space of already having enough. Abundance. Choices are made from a space of stillness and knowingness. Choices embrace the unknown because the ‘I’ making choices knows deeply the unknown is an expression of Self, not an outside force or energy. People who make choices over decisions know there can be so mistake because the energetic ocean of potential, possibilities, and probabilities they are choosing from - is all their own energy, never another’s, never from an outside force. Thus, they know there is nothing to fear. Beings who make choices over decisions have a deep trust of Self, and the unknown or unexplored parts of their consciousness. It is in this trust that they allow energy to serve them and the choice they made in a space of unwavering freedom. The freedom to Exist, untethered. A SHORT STORY ABOUT CHOOSING AND ALLOWING One of the patrons, on the last call, brought up something that struck a chord with me and reminded me of one of the greatest choices I ever made. He so wisely said he was not in a hurry anymore in allowing this full embodiment. He said he’d rather do it in Joy than fast. In him saying this, a memory surfaced for me, one I had filed away as too personal to share – until now. Perhaps some of you were around in September 2018 and can recollect this. Yet, I haven’t written the personal details of it yet – until now. In September of 2018, I was living in Encinitas, California and got that familiar nudge to move. On a road trip, I saw house up in the cliffs of the Oregon coast that sang to my soul. I went through the process of placing an offer on the house, which was accepted, and I was moving through the inspection process when it hit me. Hard. The house was absolutely stunning. Designed by an artist, it hovered over a cliff overlooking the Pacific in an extremely remote part of the state. Yet, it’s deeper meaning was what the house represented: the choice to go all in – fully diving into the unknown to allow embodied enlightenment completely. It represented the Point of No Return. The choice to dive into the perceived chaos of the unknown. Come what may. It was not going to be gentle, but it was going to be quick, and Morya was there to point out, this choice would allow me to get into what I was here to share (teach) in a more succinct manner. He did not push, but offered perspective. I have to take this story back a little… You see after realization in November 2017, I was kind of chugging along when I came to realize whatever I could not handle clearing before realization was now coming up to be cleared before embodiment. For example, not having remembered anything that happened at the fall of Atlantis, I now remembered it in great detail. All of it. The implants started to come out. And with each implant thrown into the sea, my mind went haywire in its creation of new patterns and pathways in the central nervous system. These Atlantean implants kept the processing center in the brain running the same patterns and programming for thousands upon thousands of years. Once removed, the flow of energy + consciousness in my physical vessel had to develop completely new patterns and methods of operation for keeping the central nervous system functioning – in an entirely new way. My human no reference point for this. I was running completely on blind trust. And hand hold by the masters who stopped by for support but without answers. The shadow of the unknown began to follow me around. I began to realize looking at the unknown that I was That – this dark shadow looming was actually me. And then, it started the somewhat crazy process of flowing into my spine. I will cover this in the next course. It is too much for this article. Yet, at the time I did not know what was happening as the shadow of the unknown moved into my spine. All I did know was that there was not a single thing to read about it anywhere – and one day I would be able to be the person to write it down so others knew what was happening to them. The things that came up did so in radical intensity and included: former misuse of power, hierarchy and its relation to suppression of Truth (more Atlantis), energetic abuse that was rampant in Atlantis, control and its best friend suffering. Oh man, did I go through the gauntlet on these themes. Human belief systems or boulders where incinerated leading up to realization, and now, after realization any belief system around energy and how it works was being incinerated before embodying that realization. I worked my way backward from the Fall of Atlantis all the way to before I crossed the Wall of Fire, leaving Oneness. And in doing so, I unwound every single story about energy I have ever fucking told myself in all of my existence. It was an internally insane time and there were no the materials from the Crimson Circle to support me. I felt deserted because the materials which had supported me so well, failed me now. Then St. G showed up when I finally quit playing victim and asked for help instead. Masters showed up to hold my hand, yet some days I felt utterly and totally alone – to the point of not knowing if I could handle staying in physical form anymore. Tears flowed like the Oregon rain. Never-ending. That is why I am so pushy when it comes to working through the themes posted in the last month. It is absolutely essential for your health and happiness and staying here embodied that these be addressed. Sure, it will happen naturally, but like the patron on the call mentioned, don’t you want it to be joyful? Do your homework. In other words, the first year after realization was not a cake walk. I appeared a total wreck, and yet I also knew exactly with precision what was going on – something I am going to cover in great detail in the book I am currently writing. So back to the story, buying the house and moving to the forest overlooking the Pacific represented a ‘ripping off the bandage’ move. It was going to be like taking my finger out of the dam of my own consciousness, and, instead of letting it trickle in – and the unwavering clarity it provides coming with it, it was going to be a full on wash out of everything I thought to be true about my relationship with energy. I understood moving into this house was going to be ‘painful’ at first – what was left of my human persona frying in the frying pan for however long it took to re-arrange my relationship with energy. It would not be pleasant but it would be the fastest option. It would be the direct line to finally getting to what I came here to teach, a living of the words Morya spoke to me when he came to me in October 2013 and said, “You are very wise and you are on Earth to teach.” If I bought this house, I was going to leave everything behind. My family, my partner, all my friends, and really begin my work here as I am doing now. At first, I approached it like a decision. I weighed the logic around the house as an investment. I weighed the option of being terrified and alone. All coming from a space of lack. Then I realized what I was actually choosing between was fast and furious or joyful and gentle. In a space of stillness, I chose gentle. That was not a pathway that was created yet. I was going to have to dig that tunnel myself. No one can do it for you. I was going to have to put Morya on hold, and I knew he would respect that. Sure, embodiment would take a whole year longer to set in, but it was a steady stream of the restructuring of my relationship with energy and a gentle glide into embodiment, which occurred on the womb-like shores of the lapping ocean waves of the island of Kauai, the space where I first came into physical form. Embodying The Original. Once I told my agent in Oregon, I no longer wanted the house. I got in my car – homeless – and made the drive back to Texas, for I had nowhere else to go. I was homeless for six months, and I let myself fall apart completely, before choosing from a place of stillness the island home where I now live. Looking back, part of me sees the beauty of that Oregon house pathway. It was a pathway created for me to choose. It was laid out for me. The beings I work with dug the trench for me, as a gift. If I had done so, I would be about a year or so ahead of what I am teaching here now. But that likely would be too far from reference point for many. Things were not chugging along in groups as fast as the Ascended Masters predicted, yet I feel that is about to change in the new year. I feel deep in the caverns of my knowingness. Some of the pot holes right now are people are still in the loop of self-love in which love is directed to a subject of little self, instead of the I AM love, which is simply being it with no separation. The self-love will take you there, but it is not the place to stop, it allowing the human and the soul or master to merge as One and get on the I AM highway. Another is the wisdom of the soul or master has still yet to integrate with the human energetic form. All is well -- it’s just that instead of a stepping stone, people seem to be setting up camp there when it was only meant to be a bridge.The soul is a bridge to the Self, not the whole Self – it is simply a facet. Just like the human. But instead, I got out my shovel – staying in the VOID – and created a new pathway for myself to ease into this embodiment. For many months, Morya gave me the space I asked for once again until one day he showed up again, asking me for the umpteenth time, “Are you finally ready?” I joke about his directness but this always was a most gentle question with total respect for the answer whatever it was. I had turned him down so many times before – it actually makes me cry. He is so loving and so patient with me. But this time I said “Yes.” And here we are – the destination the same – whether I picked the Oregon all in scenario or the Texas gentle surf to shore. All paths lead to the same destination. All is always well in my creation. THE TAKE AWAY This article is not about going fast or slow or creating a debate about it. That’s beside the point of consciousness. This article is about feeling into whether you are operating from lack or abundance of Spirit. It is about really tapping into choice versus making yet another human decision. There’s no such thing as logic. It’s all about your relationship with energy and allowing it to respond to a conscious choice that comes from a space of the most magical and creative of words: BE STILL AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOD, ALSO
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The nature of stories is that they loop, never ending. It’s a beautiful thing because the stories we live and the wisdom we acquire through them continue on without us. Legacy. We leave the looping stories behind for those who surf in our wake - and for ourselves in other lifetimes or realities to remind us of the wisdom from the energetic streams we created - through the stories/ myths/ legends. What served and no longer serves will certainly serve another even when we have sucked every ounce of wisdom from the story lines for ourselves. Step aside and let another being drink from the story stream. You are already drunk with wisdom. (Morya trying to be funny... 🤦♀️) However, the quite interesting thing is that a looping story is what causes so much of human suffering. Long after people are ready to leave the story line, they often find themselves in the perception of stuck or trapped- trying to write a conclusion to something that contains no conclusion. The nature of stories is that they loop. As soon as you step back into it, trying to write the end of the story, or worse, change it, you’re back in the loop! They only way out of a repeating story line, you are so done playing in, is to go beyond the loop. Use gravity in your creative favor. Go into the VOID of SELF. Sit in your sovereign awareness. For those on who read our work, these stories are often spun off the fall of Atlantis or the play of Yeshua on the cross. Or coming into physical form for the first time. That initial point of separation. Or the fight for energy that started in the angelic realms before Earth’s creation and then mirrored perfectly on our current home planet. On the surface, the story lines may appear to be about money, jobs, surface-level human conflict, body aches and pains, and unrequited love. But I assure you, it all stems from those bigger deeper story lines that run in the depths of consciousness, uncovered. There’s no way to write a conclusion to something whose very nature is a circle. Instead, you must feel your way out. Sensing Self. Stepping into the Void where new energy is literally created, perhaps, if you choose. This new moon eclipse opened the door for that awareness in an experience of depth - and that choice for something new, should you find yourself out and about getting yanked around by yet another story. Bigger picture: I saw huge releases (purging, is that the right word?) happening around these old story lines and especially for those BIG stories I mentioned above. As that clears, it creates a gravitational slip stream to pull you even further into your sovereign shiny consciousness, should you choose it. Void. —- Last post of the year, friends. I’m going to fill up my own cup the next week. See you on January, 6 2020 for the Satsang posted on our YouTube channel. 2020 - so crazy! ~ The wisemen (KH, MM, DK) & the North Star (also Sar'h consciousness) ___ "In terms of the Christ Consciousness/Christ Seed, again, we deal with all of these different definitions, but it comes from the root energy “crystal” or “Christos,” “clear” or “new.” It is not that it has to do with Jesus Christ, as it were, or the Christ that you read about in your holy scriptures. It is about the clearness or the newness. So when it was referred to that the Christ Seed had been planted, the Christ Consciousness is here, it means the new. Basically, New Energy. Two thousand years ago so many of you were here on Earth in that general time era to plant the seeds of new consciousness that are now coming out. You’ve come back to be the ones to harvest what is coming in as new consciousness so you can therefore share it with others in the world. This is the new consciousness I talked about earlier." Kuthumi Lal Singh, Q&A October 6, 2007, via Crimson Circle  A Short Story about what happens when embodied beings come together to play - sovereignly and collectively: Back in November, I met a friend - an embodied being - in New Mexico and then we drove up to Colorado. It was such a special trip for many reasons but mainly it was marked by extreme laughter and camaraderie that can only be felt between peers in consciousness. Nothing to be figured out, no where to go, multiplicity of reality - a given. No assertions of human uniqueness were made on this journey, for they are no longer needed. The inimitable nature of consciousness is a given. No coaxing into a state of whole-ness. It simply exists. One day after soaking in the hot springs and after eating one of the biggest meals I've had in a long while - especially for two tiny women - and strangely enough, not feeling full or drunk even from the many beers we sampled at a local brewery, we got "lost" on our way back to our cabin in the woods. The GPS started going haywire, and of course, we could not stop laughing, deciding to follow it anyway. My friend was driving the car and following the GPS blindly - oooh, a game to play. It took me a minute to realize we were driving away from our rented cabin. Next thing I know, after driving in several winding circles, we were on a street literally called "Master's Circle," making loop after loop. With each turn we made, the laughter growing more and more contagious. My friend tried to make turns to get us back on the main road. A left here. Then a right. Nope, we were still driving on the street called Master's Circle, for what felt like a 'long' while in a space beyond time and space. Finally, we stopped the car and made a conscious decision to go back into physical reality. Still laughing. The street signs seemed to change. The sky that was dark black became the light of dusk again. We made our way back to our cabin. It wasn't too long ago that I locked myself in a cabin in the woods alone, to allow "realization" which becomes such a silly word for something so magnanimous - from the Latin magnus meaning great and animu meaning soul. After diving into into the depths of alone and crossing the desert valley of death, both of identity/ persona and any and all beliefs surrounding realization and energy, there's nothing quite like getting together with another being who has discovered themselves as God, also. It was a delicious glimpse at New Life - at New Earth reality living. My sovereign movie screen, called BON, may never overlap with another's. Yet, when one person playing in their I AM Presence comes together with one or more others playing in their I AM Presence, the possibilities are endless. The realities to explore - together or alone - infinite. In this specific glimpse into New Earth reality, it was the laughter of two embodied beings, which metamorphosed into potentials and possibilities for anyone choosing the consciousness experience for eons to come. It is pathways that are lined with laughter, joy, and surprise - and above all, NEW-NESS. I'm glad I took the I AM THAT I AM highway, as I talked about in my book. It was an act of courage to drive onto the highway which contains no exits, no stops, and no turnarounds. Once that roads ends, it drops YOU off in the place where the pathways to explore become infinite. Something so welcome after driving the same old energetic roads on the same old energetic map, in the same old finite reality for far too long. BTW, there's a really good reason I use this image below time and time again. Just saying.   Hello friends and happiest of New Years!
I wrote this experiential article on Christmas Eve 2019, in honor of all the Merlins and Masters choosing realization in the year 2020. I am so in honor of you and want to be one of the first beings to swing out into the future now moment and say, "Hello. I see you. Wanna play?" Here we go. Grab your surfboards... The last ocean swell has left the island. For those who do not surf physical waves – conscious ones, instead – that means there is nowhere to surf by my home right now. I did get three glorious days of cold but sweet surf in before the ocean became flat once again. When that happens, I turn back to my first true love – writing. Another form of surf! You know I use the waves and surfing analogy a lot when it comes to realization. It’s what I know, and it is simply appropriate. Sometimes in allowing embodied realization it feels like nothing is happening. "Why is nothing happening?" Basically, you are a surfer standing on the sand, all dressed in your wetsuit and holding your surfboard, ready to surf but the waves aren’t there yet. So, you wait. And you wait some more. You go do other things until the waves show up, ready to be ridden. Those waves are your I AM consciousness. The surfer is the human you choosing realization combined with the wisdom of the soul or the master. The master and human combined form the Merlin. The surfboard is a vehicle called allowing. The human and the master – containing all the wisdom from all lifetimes and in between – combined, which some call Merlin, is standing on the sand, holding its allowing surfboard, and waiting for the waves of conscious awareness to come pick up the Merlin and deliver it in unity of the trinity of Self – soul, human and the Infinite Mystery of the I AM combined as ONE. You wait and you wait and you wait for the waves to form. “Where are the waves of realization?” you ask, tapping your foot impatient. It feels like IT is taking forever. You wait so long, you just brush it aside. Either the waves will come or they will not. Either realization will be there or it won't. “I can’t care anymore,” you tell yourself. Then one day, you, the human, look out from your balcony and see something starting to form in the ocean. The Merlin in You says, "Hey, take note." So you do. The Wisdom of the Master says, "It is time." Through your combined vision - human and divine - you see a little set of waves come through. A pause. Then another set comes through. And another. With each set the waves get bigger. The waves get cleaner, which means they will be worthy of surf. There’s a sensation that flows through your body of consciousness that says without words: “Are you ready? It is time.” The thing is at this point you know you are ready. The dragon expression of You cast its unrelenting vision of clarity upon all you had left to clear as a human and a souled being, to prepare you for this moment. You studied and studied and then you dropped it. Your physical body broke down, and re-wired itself. All in preparation for this ONE moment beyond time and space - Realization. There was nothing more to learn right now. It was only about allowing. "Are you going to allow the leap into consciousness?" Yes. Yes, you are. In the days leading up to the surf waves coming to your island, a sensation of deep stillness and surrender to SELF already set in as you were waiting for the waves to arrive. You became peacefully aware of all of your SELF, as you pulled back from external reality. All of it. A deep peace combined with the sensation: it doesn't matter. None of the stuff I thought mattered actually does. And now the day is here. You were told the date was set. Sometimes you doubted it, but now you know it is true. It always has been true. The I AM consciousness wave is there. It has finally arrived. That voice inside you says silently, “This is it. Realization.” “Will you ride the wave?” The question comes in as choice – one last time – and then you realized quickly, “Oh yes, I have already ridden the I AM consciousness wave and it works out just fine.” You have waited all your lifetimes for this moment. The human almost in a trance-like state, wisdom of the master in tow, gathers up its surfboard. The paddle out to the breaking wave is easy. You are not having to fight to paddle out this time. The dragon clarity dissolved the baggage that weighed you down before, creating a friction the last time you attempted to paddle out. Readiness. It’s almost as if the current is dragging you effortlessly out to the wave’s peak without you doing anything. Ease. It is all happening. Holy shit. Once you get your surfboard lined up with the wave’s peak, you watch a few sets of waves go past you and then you see IT. THAT is the wave I am going surf. That is the wave of realization. You can sense in your cells and the space between the cells the wave forming from far away. As it rolls toward you, it begins to grow taller. The wave grows as it sucks water from the ocean floor, and you know it’s going to be a big one. Oh. My. Goodness. The soul sings, “There is nothing to fear.” And, the human trusts this song of the soul above all else. You maneuver yourself on your allowing surfboard into the best position to catch the wave. Your master or soul wisdom is the navigator here. It places you in the perfect spot to catch this wave of consciousness - your inimitable I AM consciousness - heading towards you. The human gives it two short paddles into the wave. Left arm. Right arm. Stand up. Pop. You're flying down the crest of the realization wave. A wave that is yours alone. Oh my goodness! it’s happening. This is really happening. Okay, now, don’t forget to enjoy it. Like really take it in. The human you almost cannot believe it. But it does anyway. A blind trust that comes from the deep stillness that set in many days ago. Then you’re standing on the surfboard riding the wave, soaring and dancing across the face of the wave effortlessly, when you realize I am THAT. I am THAT wave of pure, undiluted, infinite consciousness. The rest was a grand illusion. That wave is Me! It’s a long ride, this wave of realization, and then when the wave stops, it folds into the ocean, and as you fly off the surfboard, hands in the air in total celebration, you fold into THAT wave as well - human and soul as one merge and combine with the I AM THAT I AM - the oceanic Self. Then you realize in the free fall from standing on the surfboard until the time you hit the water's surface: The ocean is YOU. The surfboard is YOU. The previously limited human, even, is YOU. The soul, simply another facet of YOU. Woah. The dragon, an expression of You that prepared you for this experience. YOU are THAT. I AM THAT - I AM. Incredible. You are all one bottom-less ocean of consciousness. YOU are GOD, also. This feels so good. And you sit with it. WHOLENESS. UNITY. BEAUTY. LOVE. GOD... All the things that were once perceptions to be explored individually, they are NOW sensations that run simultaneously. Kaleidoscopic vision. Singularly multiple voice. Like an orgasm, you hold it until you cannot anymore. Deep release. A deep surrender to the void. When it’s time to come back out of the ocean and walk on the sandy shores of physical reality, it is YOU that emerges. A state of no separation. A fluid being with no fixed identity. Not only that, there is an entirely different world waiting to be explored as YOU – in an oceanic state of no separation. And that’s where things start to get real interesting. It is when you start to really live - for the very first time. This is where my next book will pick up. It will cover my life experiences spanning the first year after realization. How do you operate in a world now as a newly realized being? Like Morya said: "I guess you get to create it!" Who emerged from the realization wave, and how did they interact with the world after everything changed? I will cover how in changing my relationship with energy in a realized state of being I went from merely surviving to absolutely thriving. And, what it looked like to take this experience and embody it fully. Recently, Adamus St. Germain said more than one thousand beings would step into the initial state of realization in 2020. First, I want to honor you. Please do not fail to enjoy the ride. It only happens once. Second, after the dust settles, you will realize realization is only the tip of the iceberg, not the whole iceberg. What you thought was the conclusion to the story, now becomes the jumping off point for embodiment and New Life, USARA. Third, I’ll hope you’ll come by to play with us when the realization dust settles. I hope you come share your embodiment with us, and when it drops you off into New Life, Nova Vita, USARA. We will be here waiting. Finally, I will see you on our YouTube channel on Monday, January 6th, for the New Year Satsang. HAPPY 2020!!! THE YEAR OF NEW ENERGY CREATION! In honor of you -- Sar'h: the Vessel of USARA consciousness for anyone choosing New Life in Embodied Form & Morya: Holding open the door for fully embodied realization and New Energy Creation We love you. Even Morya gets a little soft tapping into this potential. REQUEST: If you found this article supportive, please feel free to forward it to any friends who might appreciate it. As you all grow, we match it. Thank you! |
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