After finishing up the Divine Blueprint workshop - something we will offer again next August and something you also offer in one on one sessions (did one yesterday!) - I began to feel an intensity like never before.
I also got COVID (again), and I was feeling the strain of this economic world situation we all find ourselves in.
Kuthumi had been absent allow me to run this workshop on my own, and he popped back in when I began to emerge from the haze of great change and not feeling so hot.
In fact, I was feeling both despair in my humanity all while being always being aware of the slow flow JOY of my divinity.
He asked me:
"Are you sad/ stressed/ humanly sick OR are you simply finding a NEW WAY to be - through disciplined curiosity?
Are you not making rivers in the desert and passageways through the wilderness?"
Something we covered in our last YouTube video below.
I wanted to punch him and then I realized he was right.
Repeat after me, he said:
"Kuthumi is always right. Light humor is always more truthful than anything heavy."
I had a chance to test it out recently.
Wednesday I was driving back from a much-needed camping trip with no computer and 24 hours no cell phone service, and I got my second flat tire in as many days - while being in the middle of no where.
I saw, sensed and knew:
Now's my chance for disciplined curiosity - something Kuthumi has walked us all through on repeat until we finally get it.
I also felt the shape of gnost (like a branching tree from where the spine connects to the back of the head) and the dynamics of how it works, which is something we cover in the Divine Blueprint materials.
All this to say is I live everything I share - I am forever a student of New Energy/ Christ Consciousness.
It's quite a whirlwind of how it all worked out.
Finding new tires from a city (all had to be replaced) and a guy willing to drive to the middle of no where to do it.
My watch said it took four hours, but as I sat at the picnic table on the side of the highway watching people come and go, I knew this flat tire was a gift.
A restoration in my faith in humanity, kindness, ability, and the New Earth we are creating alone together.
A new neural network created to be able to trust (once again) my ability to create a fluidly supported life by allowing it to run through me unfiltered.
Micro adjustments in the macro view - how you command new energy!
As I waited for this tire situation to fix itself through me (the actor and observer as ONE), it felt like an infinite 5 minutes rather than 4 hours on the side of the highway.
I too was drunk on LOVE - yet again - just like Kuthumi and Rumi!!
I am love with YOU. I am LOVE with Humanity! I am in Love with JOY and Gnost and all things Earthly.
It poured through me live a ranging river with no banks.
The doom and gloom girl from the days before - with no disciplined curiosity and no joy - would still be on the side of that highway crying saying why am I here, why is this so hard...
There is a deeper share here I want to get across.
It's important but I almost want to whisper it to you...
It's not so much about finding yourself at the bottom of a hole or falling out of grace anymore.
It's about being a student of New Energy.
It is about being willing to be wrong again and again.
This doom and gloom maybe isn't so fatal - after all. Maybe it's not something the human needs to fix or change but simply lean into.
The realized being reaching back to reclaim its humanity once again.
Maybe it is simply what it feels like to bring formless into form, to infuse Spirit into the the bio body, to identify subtle energy and make it gross physical again.
Maybe we just don't have the right language and labels for it yet!
So much so I hear people pointing at dragon clarity or the old energy stories about "maybe I am not allowing enough" and on...
But perhaps the "I Am doing a New Thing" is exactly that?
It IS New & something we do not quite have words for yet.
More to come in the November Satsang/ Playing in the Ps video.
IF NO ONE HAS TOLD YOU LATELY:
THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE ON EARTH.
IT IS A WILDLY BEAUTIFUL THING THAT YOU ARE HERE!
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels, how to books, and short stories about embodying the Christ Consciousness on Earth.