Happy holidays to you, friends!
On the patreon page we are talking about the creation of new neurons as consciousness moves through the central nervous system – the spine and up to the brain allowing cognition to meet consciousness.
Over here on our general website, I want to talk to you about conflict or the lack thereof when you reach embodiment.
Truly, the two go hand in hand. As the neural network moves beyond pattern and conditioning, conflict can no longer exist, for you have moved too far beyond duality. Here’s a personal story.
Today's short story is about conflict and the lack thereof in the embodied being experience. This morning's island entertainment was my neighbor kicking a boyfriend out of her house.
"No one is going to live here for free! Go! Get!"
The yelling went on and on. Man, we've all been there at some point, right?
Moving from the singular human experience to the spiritual one, in somewhat of a plot twist, conflicts grow deeper because what's at stake is something of soul nature rather than a surface-level lifetime.
You become sensitive to energy dynamics and what's occurring - in deep shifts within yourself - not only mirror but amplify in the space of spiritual company.
You act out old lifetime stories as the wheel of karma spins you round and round and round.
I can feel it - oh and I did it in the past, especially in my time in Colorado - so many people putting up the boundaries - my favorite - the Facebook block! Ha! Really?!
The talk is boundaries, boundaries, boundaries. Cutting ties. Severing cords and on and on and on. None of that actually works. And man did I try it...
Instead, conflicts dissolve when you step into your new reality as an embodied being, should you choose it.
These spiritual group and spiritual relationship conflicts are really no different than the lady in her pajamas yelling at her freeloading boyfriend to get the eff out of her house.
Here's the deal - whatever conflict you have going on inside of you is attracting the perfect person to play out the internal conflict externally or in your perception of your physical reality space.
You block or boundary one person and another will show up pretty quick to mirror that conflict until its resolved. It really has nothing to do with the person or even karma at some point -- because it is all about YOU and your relationship with energy.
You can end up with a long list of blocks and walls and walls of boundaries, but it doesn't solve anything.
You can cut cords and more cords - yet until the state of no separation sets in - wherever you feel you lack or are cut off from parts of yourself - no boundary is going to make you whole.
You have to allow yourself to become whole. That cannot be based on another person. Not at this stage in the game. It's all You.
Alternatively, you can clear what's inside yourself, changing your relationship with energy, which is what we are going through on the patreon page. It’s the dissolution of beliefs about separation with pure awareness. Realizing the internal and external match. There was actually no boundary between the two. Another illusion of duality.
Realization is a mirror-free state of being.
Embodied realization is not only beyond mirrors, but beyond the experience of an external reality. (BON)
Recently, something opened up for me - in this stepping into not just being-ness but embodying it - around this wall between internal and external dissolving.
I had a friend who played a role for me recently (thank you). I woke up one morning and realized she blocked me on facebook (someone had to tell me because I can't feel such things anymore) and was trying to share/ convince/ not real sure who cares it’s not about me/ hurt me in some way.
Before I had two tools: reach for my 'defend and clarify my position' voice OR think out how to approach it and smooth it over.
I realized in that moment, there was no "me" to reach for anything. I had no tools to reach for. I had no hand to reach for said tools.
The amount of energy to drop myself into her reality screen was too big an expense. I actually tried for a split second because I really like this friend, but found I simply could not.
I attempted to explore being mad or sad or something that humans are supposed to feel. I tried to locate those emotions to no avail for that's what was familiar.
I explored cutting off my energy to her but instead of creating a boundary, I found instead I create a larger opening for my love to flow through. Instead of building a wall, I dug a trench to make the opening bigger.
I cannot stress enough - this was not a thought process that happened in the brain processing center. I had no adrenaline shooting through my body, which is what happens when conflict arises - physical or emotional.
These explorations only occurred in pure observational awareness. The place of the witness, with no participant.
It was something that was a weaving of energetic sensations through this vessel of being-ness I inhabit now.
All this exploration laid out in a somewhat linear form here - for the sake of story - actually happened in a simultaneous split second within the voided self.
And in this split second, I realized, none of these old ways were available to me. Even if I wanted them to be. There wasn't even a temptation to use this experience to move energy, which is why people love conflict even though they say they hate it.
I could only feel love. I can't not love someone. It is literally impossible not to love AND even more surprising, I realized I loved this dear friend even more for showing me this internal change took place.
When I feel into her presence I feel only love back. It is quite curious. Because people inform me she is really mad, but I can't feel that and I attempted to do so because that's what she wants me to do.
I know this writing fails to capture what I want to say, but I'm going for it anyway.
When the internal conflict dissolves completely, in the state of no separation, it is replaced by something that is indefinable. Love is not the right word - it's far too grand for that - but will have to suffice. Peace? Deep, deep peace. The wordless...
If you ARE interested in a dramatic story, the greatest act occurring today is witnessing Ollie dig up a bone in an undisclosed location to move it into another secret spot.
I had to hide behind the bird of paradise, so he didn't know I was spying on him. He would never let me know where this magical bone is hidden. Some secrets are too sacred to share. Ha! (It's in the bamboo - shhh!)
Happy holidays and an invitation for them to be as peaceful as they are in our island tree house and wherever we may roam. Or if you're going for the conflict, go all in. Go in full awareness mode, and really watch why you're choosing it. It will become your greatest teacher.
With love and a hug that out stretches to the new year --
~ Sar'h and the Professor
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and shares her work here with the Magus Kuthumi.