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Imagine a time and space in which the parts and pieces of Self are no longer scattered on simultaneous timelines. They have come home for this very special lifetime of wholeness. Integration through pure awareness.
Imagine instead of energy within being driven and motivated by triggers (that dissolve along with the emotional, mental and physical body), they are motivated by an integrated passion to be YOU. To exist free and clear.
Imagine instead of a dense physical body, you operate as a vessel of consciousness that flows freely through life (or life flows through it rather).
Feel into the already existing stream of your inimitable consciousness that flows through your free energy vessel.
Feel into what it is like to have time and space move through you - creational gold - rather than moving through linear time and physical space.
Instead of manifesting from lack, solving a problem, trying to fill in a space of something you do not yet have, imagine creating from a sense of wholeness.
What would it look like to create for the sake of expression rather than trying to fill a need or make yourself feel different or be finished with something? What would you create?
There is no crack to fill, no human desire to bring in something you think you might be missing, instead creation is out of pure joy rather than lack. If you choose, go to this space.
Realization, enlightenment, any perceived final destination is now simply a billboard that you drove past about 600 miles ago as you drive down the I AM THAT I AM freeway.
Having passed by this concept of realization or enlightenment or what have you, you are now free to create whatever you choose. This is your New Life - USARA - what do you want to create?
You can share in the comments or on today's call if you wish.
Also... We will cover what I called the "little black box" - for myself and in those I have worked with or stood by, moving from the initial realization into embodiment of it, some things tend to come up.
The human stuff has now been cleared. Relational stuff from this lifetime, childhood traumas, I'm not good enough aspects, past lives of persecution and violence. Stuff that was handled throughout awakening.
Then a point is reached where a deep sigh of relief occurs. You can feel the I AM THAT with depth of experience rather than simply as a concept. This is absolutely necessary to move forward...
The dragon clarity comes in for one last look - for you do not want to take anything in the black box with you into embodiment.
For me, this was the removal of an Atlantean implant and the guilt and shame surrounding it.
You will not come with me into my embodiment and the New Life that comes after it.
Another was former abuses of power - not even ones on Earth - but in the angelic realms where the energy feeding games began and then reflected on Earth, magnified even today.
Additionally, bringing in parts and peices of Self that have never been on Earth. This is not bringing home a human past life for integration - that was handled pre-realization.
This is expanding out in the cosmos to meet the parts of myself I projected out there for a specific service that is no longer needed.
For example, for me, that was bringing in the part of me who sat on angelic councils, where hierarchy was still a thing. Let's just say she did not want to give up her position of power.
Opening this black box is messy. It make cause you do doubt yourself, your consciousness, or to lash out at everyone around you, projecting it.
I hope if this temptation arises to last out at others, you will remember there's only one energy and its all yours. Proecting it out is such a huge distraction. This has nothing to do with others, only your SELF. Peace is an inside job - it all is.
The Dragon time is a time for going deep within - as energy begins to truly serve you.
Again, it calls for an awareness that all energy is one and it is all yours.
There is no one doing anything to you -- not from some outside entity, person or group.
Because it is all your energy, you can meet it and accept it fully. No matter how dark it may appear.
Energy is serving here by bringing into your vision any last separations, any last traumas. any last guilt, any imbalances.
What is left of our human persona may say, "I'm letting energy serve me, and it is killing me."
Then as Morya would say, "put your big girl panties on."
As I learned the hard way, once I stop fighting the perception of outside energy, the big picture rolls through.
Anytime something unpleasant or perceived as dark came through - THAT WAS ENERGY SERVING ME!
Not how the human thought it would, but in an even more supportive way. The only thing upset was the wisp of human personality identification that was left.
We were going to full embodiment with no stone unturned. This was appropriate, necessary, and I finally understood, it didn't have to look good on the surface. I didn't need to explain myself to anyone, and I was no less a master for being a total and complete mess.
In fact, without this time period of allowing the huge mess (not suffering, just perceptional chaos), being vulnerable in not trying to manage or hide the mess from my peers, I realized I was never going to make it to the shores of embodiment or step into my new life.
It had to fall completely apart. The house of cards had to collapse. I had to let it go, that's all. And let go how it looked to my human self or anyone else.
I think there might be a idea that this little black box never goes away, I'm going to answer that with an AND.
First, having spend two years staring the dragon in the eye with no breaks, I watched one wave after another come. Then around August/ September, I kept staring in the eye of the dragon, but another wave didn't come.
Maybe this is just a break between sets, surely there is something else to clear. And then my buddy (also your buddy if you chose it) St. Germain came. We went on a walk along a Kauai, Hawaii trail.
He did not give me an answer or tell me anything. He said, "I am here because I would be with you every step of the way. We are at the next point of no return."
He stopped walking and disappeared. I got it instantly.
His presence showed me I had emptied the black box. And now, embodiment was at hand.
Any of the massive imbalances, especially angelic council girl, that would have been a recipe for cancer or leading me to the mental institution had been cleared. I was ready to integrate the biology - or in CC language, I had visited the altars of change and transmutation.
Embodiment began to take hold - the piercing clarity which had dropped me to my knees over and over again, that clarity that led me to cry for a solid month and stand on Mount Shasta arms raised saying, "Fuck you! You don't know how hard this is, bitches!!!" So embarrassing now, to call out to ascended masters like that.
Well, it's not like that clarity went away, it's just that I got used to it. It became welcome and I keep it forefront.
It is no something I used and discarded. The dragon clarity is something that will always be a part of my kaleidoscopic vision.
Do things still come up in the dragon eye of clarity? Yes, but they are tiny and instantly seen for what they are and cleared. It happens less and less and always when necessary.
It's not that the dragon eye of clarity goes away, or that there is a graduation (so human, stop with that, please).
The dragon goes from being a separate aspect of Self into an integrated expression of Self. It's always there, and becomes not a foe or teacher, this dragon becomes part of your creational ability. To create with precision in energetic awareness.
Here in this space it allows me to see what going on with clarity, how I can improve as a facilitator, and more importantly in the hours and days and weeks and months I spend alone, it has become a dear friend.
In the end, the dragon is an expression of your SELF, that says dear human personality, lets open this black box together.
It may not be pleasant, it may humble and even humiliate you in the most perfect of ways, yet, in the end, the best friends are those who are straight with you.
I used to wonder why Morya never came and put his hand on my back or when I sat crying on the bathroom floor why he wouldn't show up. Sometimes he would disappear for months. He is a master of few words.
And then I realized it was because he loved me. He respected me. When I was standing on two feet, clear, open and not blinded by my emotions and fears, then and only then would he come by.
He was saying, hey, you're to grand for this nonsense. You are so much more.
Morya especially found it highly unattractive when I got caught up in human drama, in surface relationships on the stage of human life, which are simply not something that is a thing in this state. If this happened, Morya was about sixteen realities away.
Now that the mental, emotional bodies dissolved (that's my word for integration because I do not feel myself filling, but going emptier and emptier) -- now that I know all that mess was my own and there was no one to blame or get tangled up in -- I can see clearly what was already here, this whole time.
No longer distracted or tangled in the unreal, I can truly see the actually reality.
Its crystalline sparkle is blinding - another new baseline - and thread in the tapestry of my New Life creation.
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and shares her work here with the Magus Kuthumi.