FIVE EXPERIENCES THAT OCCUR POST-REALIZATION
You have finally admitted to your SELF that you are realized, or have had the experience of Returning to Self. Moment of pause to honor YOU. And a whole lot of “Now what?”
My inbox is full - not surprisingly - after St. G has declared more than 10,000 beings on Earth have experienced their realization.
Many are Shaumbra and still many are not, nor have they ever heard of such a term.
Identifying as a Shaumbra is another thing that will end up in the integration trash can that becomes increasingly full post-realization experience.
In the end, or rather, the beginning, you will realize being a Shaumbra is simply another story line, and there’s no room in the empty for stories anymore.
Regardless, life as a realized being is not at all about the stories you told yourselves – I know because I did the same thing. Oh. I held so many garbage stories about what it meant to be realized, crown on my head. Crown is now in the trash, too. I prefer to hold my head weightless of such a thing.
Further, there is no shame in reaching out for sovereign support and having a desire to share your experiences with like- consciousness beings. You can always send me a note. Always.
In fact, I would argue it’s one of the healthiest ways to thrive – not merely survive – in your new-found FREEDOM, a much more appropriate term than realization.
I made a list – one that I will dive deeper into in the Satsang – of all I wish I knew going into FREEDOM.
1) Some days you will feel more human and increasingly empty than you ever have before.
The email goes like this. I feel more human than I ever have, and I have no desire to talk with or be around anyone.
Yes! I get it and this is a temporary state. It is so helpful to have peers in consciousness to connect to when things get real intense, and they will, no doubt.
Alone time is essential, and in staying on Earth after realization – sovereign support can mean the difference from becoming an agoraphobic body curled in your bedsheets wondering what in the actual fuck is going on.
Wasn’t this supposed to be the panacea for all that ails me?
Actually, everything you discovered yourself to be in realization will actually highlight the stuff you hung onto that you are not. That too will all come up - all over again - for another round of garbage can composting.
The dragon continues to make it rounds despite what you see on your social media pages about life after realization.
Ancient integrations will occur. In catching up the mind will go a little off track. The biology will have sometimes extreme and sharp phantom pains.
Everything that you did not deal with prior to realization, will now be on the table to sort out - through allowing through being rather than doing.
However, You will be able to add the GRACE that you are now to it - something you did not have access to pre-realization.
Enjoy the pause of the human moments. They will not last. Nothing lasts in realization.
THERE WILL NEVER BE A SOLID GROUND AGAIN. THE GROUND WAS AN ILLUSION ANYWAY.
I once wrote: being the God, also is a dance with no dance floor. Stop waiting for the dance floor to appear. It is not going to. You learn to float instead.
What I mean is: The experience of being, post-realization, becomes increasingly dynamic – never static – as you weave into an infinite state of further.
You never stop going further into the void of SELF. Never.
There is no finish line. That was a bullshit belief system you told yourself. I know from direct experience.
2) You will not be beyond fear, crossing the valley of alone or the depth of sadness.
As you step into a state of infinite further, you will continue to meet parts and pieces of yourself – often ancient ones – who might appear scary.
As you open up to your own energy, you begin to accept parts of pieces of Self that you were not able to accept prior to witnessing and accepting your own consciousness.
Death and rebirth will be constant themes. For about six months after my initial realization, I was always shocked when I woke up in the morning alive – with absolutely no human identity.
After realization, as I wrote, I crossed the valley of alone and the depthless depth of sadness. I could not have done this prior to realization.
I also lost my mind entirely before it came “online” in this new state of being in a radical act of surrender. Totally terrifying to the humanity layer of Self.
That mind chatter will go away, but it will wax and wane like phases of the moon for some time after realization. The mind can become dark and dramatic and extremely fearful as it comes into alignment with your new state of being. It is not a reflection of your consciousness. At all.
Most ascended masters do not know this first-hand because they experienced their realization, maybe the honeymoon period, and then left the physical body behind.
You are the pioneer and the leader now. They sit resting on their cosmic couches with no true understanding of what it feels like to embody.
3) Things will continue to trigger you, as more and more SELF, or your inimitable consciousness comes into your humanity’s awareness.
Yep, you will still get annoyed and perhaps, like me, you will be more sensitive than you ever were as a human or in your awakening.
This is normal and will subside the deeper you dive into Self, navigating the Void that is YOU after you allow the human identity and even the soul to integrate into the All that is.
Realization was never the cure. It was only the gate into the State of Further. The state of further is how one thrives in life post-realization. Go further! Do not stop here!
4) If you thought you were different from others before, you will begin to see how truly different you actually are.
And that’s a good thing. You do not need to identify with humans or relate to them to THRIVE in their presence.
Instead of being hyper focused on personal interactions in your little sphere, this sensation of how different you actually are is a slip and slide into the greater picture.
This is what takes you into a state of radiating your light on Earth.
It’s like a little membrane or bumper goes up and you simply cannot engage in drama. This makes you feel really different because that’s all human do.
By seeing how different you have become, you open up the door for experiences the UNITY, ONE-NESS and STATE OF NO SEPARATION that is absolute reality.
For a time, relative reality will seem very foreign and then you get over that, and start to being the absolute into the relative and then and only then will you have that BON screen experience in which you have an ACTUAL – not just knowing it but experiencing it – of there is only one energy and it’s all mine.
And hey, actually there is no separation between energy and consciousness even. Energy does not even need to respond to my consciousness anymore. FURTHER.
5) At first there will still be waves of desiring an authentic connection, and a sadness that you cannot experience that anymore because you aren’t living in relative reality.
YET, one of the grandest realizations that will come to light is absolutely nothing is authentic, and everything is authentic – even the humans on autopilot are being authentic to the given moment in time and space.
LIFE AFTER REALIZATION IS ALL ABOUT LETTING GO OF ALL BELIEF SYSTEMS AROUND AUTHENTICITY AND SIMPLY BEING NOTHING AND EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE.
IT’S ALL JUST AN ACT OF CONSCIOUSNESS.
Conscious - YES! But ALWAYS an ACT, nonetheless.
You do not need anything to allow this experience. The post-realization dragon will put it front of your awareness-ready face and burn it to ashes. You can either cry about it like I did, or set off fireworks in celebration of it burning to the ground. Option 2, please.
The body – including the brain in your physical body and the mind outside your physical body – will undergo extreme change and pressure that would make coal turning into a diamond look easy. We will cover all this and more in 2021.
With love, compassion, and an I AM HERE, for anyone choosing to stay and really truly enter that State of Further that is required for THRIVING – not mere survival – in an EMBODIED state of being,
Sar’h and Koot Hoomi, one of the ascended masters with DIRECT experience STAYING here
Lauren Hutton (Sarah) writes adventure novels and short stories about the self-realization experience and beyond. She fancies herself a humanizing divinity journalist and shares her work here with the Magus Kuthumi.