Summer of Softness: Allowing Identity to Crumble

The following is a transcript from a parable Kuthumi and I shared in a Sovereign Collective Call last month. 

​I suggest pairing it with music. A song is right above here. 

We'll start here and later in the month, I will introduce more pointers like the five to further and have some more articles on the christ consciousness. 

But there is an understanding this must go first. 

​The Concrete of Identity Crumbles: 

Alright. So, I’m just going to get right into it. It is May 18, 2022.

So, imagine you live in a concrete building in the city, like an apartment building. 
 
Forget about what linear year it is or whatever. 
 
It’s duality. You’re on Earth, and it’s duality. 
 
No time frame needed because that hasn’t changed. Earth has always been a place of duality. 
 
A bomb goes off and busts the building up. There are concrete blocks everywhere, right? 
 
Concrete blocks everywhere. Blown to bits. 
 
You’re alive and thank God your family’s alive. 
 
So, after the dust settles, the family decides to keep living in this broken building.  
 
And they decide they are going to put it back together over time. 
 
They’re going to put the concrete building back together as a family over time.
 
So, they start trying to find pieces of concrete that fit into one another to put the puzzle pieces back together.

In this concrete building of duality. 

So, we’re just taking the duality concrete and putting it back together with more duality. 
 
And the son tells the mom, “Hey mom, that piece doesn’t go there.” 

And she says, “Yes it does! It most certainly goes there.” 
 
So, they actually get in a huge argument. 
 
They don’t even talk to each other for like two weeks because they can’t agree where this concrete block goes in. 
 
Meanwhile, if they just walked maybe five miles, there’s a really nice pre-existing house in the country. 
 
It has wild strawberries growing and it has a stream next to it, like a freshwater source. 
 
So, they have water, they have food, everything is right there. All their needs will be met effortlessly. 

But they can’t let go of putting this building back together because they’re going to get it right this time.

They are going to finally get it right this time. 
 
And really, truly that is what the Christ Consciousness shining your light from YOU through you, the human, is doing: it is dropping a bomb on your concrete walls of human identity. 
 
— which is the same dynamic as Dragon Clarity, which is the same thing as consciousness touching parts and pieces of your energy. 

It’s like, okay so the identity is crumbled. The building has crumbled. 
 
But the ego, before it becomes the wego, it’s still trying to put the concrete blocks back in place rather than just saying:
 
“Hey… I could just walk out of this. I don’t have to put this back together. In fact, if I put it back together a bomb of duality will just come and hit it again.”

Right? And then the building will fall apart again, and the next generation of people (reincarnating on the wheel of maya) will begin fighting- again. 
 
The grandmother with the grandchildren, right?
 
“No, that’s not where that block goes.”
 
They finally get the building back together and then another thing happens to destroy the building. 
 
But that’s what the ego is trying to do constantly, is build back this building – this separate identity over and over again. 

Right? 
 
Oh, a bomb came in and put it off – put off the walking away from this crumbling identity building. 
 
It put it off because you think you have to clean up the mess first and then allow. This and then that. Duality. 
 
When all the ego has to do is become the wego and then it can go live in the really nice cottage down the street. 
 
Kuthumi is like, “It’s a five-mile walk, it’s really nice! You can talk to the trees. Everything’s right there.” 
 
Right? The we-go. 
 
Ego thinks it’s an entity, a noun, a thing, a who. 
 
We-go is a verb. It’s fluid.

It’s all of humanity without a singular human identity persona. 
 
And it could be— the members of the household, could be you fighting against yourself. 
 
Well, it’s always you, fighting against yourself.
 
But what I’m seeing is there’s a huge amount of ancestral freedom taking place on planet Earth.
 
I see it in my human friends, I’ve seen it in the Sovereign Collective.
 
And it’s like the ego says, “I have to get everything put back in place. I have to heal all these relationships before I can go to that house in the strawberry fields.” 
 
And what it’s saying is, “Until I have something happen, I am not worthy. I am not dignified enough.”
 
But the dignity of the human experience doesn’t come in once you put the concrete house back together.

Something else will just come knock it back down. 

The dignity of the human experience happens when you let it be broken. It’s so counter-intuitive. 
 
There is no dignity in trying to put the concrete blocks together. 
 
The dignity comes in leaving the mess – allowing it to be a mess – knowing none of it was who or what you truly are. 
 
And whether we’re fighting against internal pieces of ourselves or— I’m literally watching people fight each other, even though they’re not really each other, that’s happening in the backend of the Sovereign Collective. Or it was but it’s not anymore because it’s been removed. 
 
Every criticism that I get is from someone trying to put that concrete house back together. Which is where the love and compassion comes in. 
 
I get it. It’s terrifying to walk away from the rubble and move further away from what you have known. It’s a leap into the unknown. I do not know how this story works out because I have never been here before. It’s beyond a pattern, and that terrifying to the ego. 
 
On the other hand, the we-go throws it’s hands in the air and yells: what a great adventure this is going to be.  Nothing is figured out!!!

You know, but what I’m telling you is that if you’re in the concrete house of ego, the praise is another brick in place. And then the criticism comes and knocks the brick back down if you’re living in an ego house. In a crumbling concrete apartment of duality and identity and separation. 
 
If you’re living down the street with Kuthumi in the strawberry field, out of your damn mind, your house never falls apart. 
 
So, sovereignty is a… Like spiritual sovereignty, spiritual autonomy, knowing who you are is not the praise and it’s not the criticism. It has nothing to do with any of that. Who you are doesn’t rely on that. 
 
It’s a deeper form of self-esteem. It’s not the little s self-esteem, it’s the big S Self-esteem. It’s the dignity. There’s dignity in it.
 
If you have to send someone a long yelling email, even if it contains all kinds of “truth”, there’s no dignity in it. 
 
I think some people sit around scrolling the internet trying to find places where they can correct people, like that’s the only thing they feel worthy of doing in life. That is sad. 

Right, but this is about ownership. 
 
Prior to the humility-inducing experience that is embodying your realization and crapping your pants over and over again. 
 
And then being courageous enough to show up and say, “Hey, I had the most magical experience and I literally crapped my pants so bad.”  
 
Right? And not making it about everything’s perfect now. 
 
But it’s this ownership, it’s like people don’t understand what the ego is.

The ego is not… like it can't be big or small. It can’t be round or sharp. There’s always ego work to do as the realization reaches every single lifetime. We. Go. We. Went. 
 
So, I think people just don’t have an understanding of what ego is. As long as you have a physical representation on Earth you’re going to have an ego or a wego. 
 
The one that says, “Hey, let’s go check the mailbox. Let’s go to the grocery store. Let’s brush our hair or take a shower to make sure that we’re keeping our wounds clean from all the outdoor activities.” Right?
 
So, we kind of glazed over the wego in the Era of the Magus Series. 
 
We didn’t get in depth, and it’s like we have got to go back and do that. 

But I just really want to feel into, all of us feel into what ego really is… 
 
You know, I still see that version of my human self, trying to put the concrete house back together. 

And I tap her on the shoulder, and I say, “Hey, we’re not here anymore. We are over there.” 
 
We’re not here anymore. I have to remind little— I feel little parts and pieces of myself out there. That’s the realization reaching every lifetime that we’ve been talking about. 
 
It’s like, “Dear version of myself, you don’t have to put that back together. Nothing is ever really put back together, and nothing ever really falls apart.”
 
And she looks up at me and she says:
 
“Yes, I do. I have to put it back. I can’t go over there with you and Kuthumi in the cottage until I put this back together.”
 
And I tell her, “If you put it back together, the strawberry field cottage won’t be there.” 
 
So, this Dragon Clarity comes in and squashes the identity, the false self, the case of the mistaken I. 
 
But if you keep rebuilding it, that cottage is not five miles down the road and a nice, lovely walk. 
 
It’s like swimming across a giant ocean with a rip current to get to.
 
Yet when the ego becomes the we-go, the strawberry field cottage by the stream - that never gets bombed by duality - it is only a single deep breath away. Chosen over and over again. It's a lot more graceful than trying to rebuild your concrete block apartment in the land of duality. 

​More coming soon. Thank you. 

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